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In conversation with Manoj Bajpayee

I have always stood up for what I believe to be right: Manoj Bajpayee

Manoj Bajpayee Speaks To Subhash K Jha On His ‘Isolation Trilogy’, and Life Beyond The Lockdown

I see Bhonsle as the third of your trilogy on isolation. How do you evaluate your work in Aligarh, Gali Guleiyan and now Bhonsle?

I think with Bhonsle I’ve unknowingly completed my trilogy on loneliness, or aloneness if we may call it that. All three films you’ve mentioned had different levels of challenge.I’ve grown so much as an actor just by preparing for these three film about desolation. All of them were thematically similar but each was a very different character,so no fixed yardstick could be used to play the three characters. I enjoyed working with the three talented directors(Hansal Mehta in Aligarh, Dipesh Jain in Gali Guleiyan and Devashish Makhija in Bhonsle) and their writers. Today I feel happy about my trilogy.I feel I have reason to celebrate my skills as an actor after doing these three films.

Tell me about the emotional toll that these three films took on you. Is it worth it to wreck your mental health for a role?

You know I believe Aligarh has improved me as an actor and a person. I approached the role in a way other actors wouldn’t have. I saw my character as a literate Lata Mangeshkar fan rather than just a gay man. My whole focus was on his insistence on his privacy and his passion for whiskey and Lataji’s voice. It was a blissful spiritual journey. I never wanted to come out of playing this character in Aligarh.

Gali Guleiyen?

I couldn’t wait to come out of character. It was the most difficult role to play. It was a role that broke me mentally. Like Shool it demanded an extreme internalization. It meant I had to forget I was married and had familial responsibilities. I started talking to myself the way the character was shown doing. Such was my preparation for this role that my wife got worried about me. On the 29th day of shooting, I went to the director and told the directors I culdn’t take the mental pressure.But we somehow finished in 33-34 days. I went too deep into the role in this film. I thought I’d lose my mind. But I had no other option. It was the path that was necessary to pull off that role. Gali Guleiyan had me in my most complex and taxing role.

And now Bhonsle?

You know, I became a producer on this one because no one was ready to produce the film. When the director Devashish Makhija came to me with the offer we had to hunt for the producer. They all feared a backlash because of the film’s political overtones. For four years Devashish kept re-writing the script drafts.We had so many meetings about the film.In the meanwhile, he made a short film Tandav with me. But we’d keep coming back to Bhonsle. The director kept coming up with new versions of the script. From the first day of shooting when Devashish put me in a crowd of 70,000 people I was ready for the challenge. I spent the whole day with the Ganpati processions on the streets without the crowd knowing about it.

In Bhonsle you play a man who goes all out to fight for what you think is right. How far would you go to stand up for what you believe in?

I have always stood up for what I believe to be right. But to me standing up for what I believe to be right. My way of protest is not to go on a dozen channels. But I assert myself in every sphere of life. My wife, daughter and I correct each other all the time. I try to do what is right. How far would I go to fight for what I believe in? That’s hypothetical. But if push comes to shove, I’d go a very long way.

Do you think the time has for the common man to speak up against injustice?

The time to stand up against injustice is always right. There are different ways of registering one’s protest. And as long as you stand up for what you feel to be right, it doesn’t matter when or where it happens.

What are your plans after the lockdown?

After four months, it seems the lockdown will never end. I was shooting in Uttarakhand when the lockdown was announced. While I was there there was no masking or sanitization only hiking and trekking in the fresh air, spending time with birds, trees, animals and fruits. Then suddenly we were back in the city and we saw a different world. I want this lockdown to end now. The country and the world have come to a standstill. I can only hope this ends immediately. As for my plans, I don’t know.As soon as this gets over, I will get on with my job. I don’t know what I’ll shoot. Before leaving Uttarakhand I decided not to plan anything. But now I have a plan.I’ll reveal it after the lockdown. But first I will have to finish shooting the incomplete film from Uttarakhand. There’re five days of shooting left.

You have completed 26 years in the film industry. how do you look back on your career so far? Which do you consider to be the high points of your career so far?

My career’s highest point will always be Ram Gopal Varma’s Satya. Coming from Bihar at the age of 18 to Delhi to do theatre hoping to become an actor in Mumbai, I did Shekhar Kapur’s Bandit Queen and then sat at home doing nothing. Financially and emotionally I was completely broke. When I got Satya, I didn’t tell anyone about this break because I didn’t know where it would go. Then suddenly I was a household phenomenon. Why just me? It would be a high point for any struggling actor. It was a game-changer for my career. And I can never forget what Satya did to my career.

If you had to undo or redo some things in your career what would you change?

I would like to relive those 4-5 years of struggle. I would call a different set of directors to give me work. Because I wasn’t getting work from Bollywood directors. Some Hindi films I did back then was only to run my kitchen.Given another chance, I’d call new directors from independent cinema and work with them even if I didn’t know the Malayalam or Tamil languages there was so much I could learn from them.Even my health was not good. But for me downtime was a learning time. I was doing workshops, theatre, meeting friends, going to my native village, spending a lot of time with my family.

You have done some exceptional work on the OTT platform. Do you feel this is where the present and the future lies?

OTT is a very new medium.I remember doing a couple of short films for YouTube. That’s when I realized that this is the future. Netflix started booming. The first thing I saw in the US was Narcos. I was blown away.I realized India too would not remain untouched by the digital boom. And that’s exactly what has happened. Because of the lockdown the OTT has hit a peak. Audiences are watching all sorts of content, even the ones they don’t find interesting. They see everything and post ruthlessly honest views on social media. The OTT has the advantage of the lockdown. It has become a strong alternative for entertainment in India.

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